I Feel Sick
by Tim Bates

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I feel sick. 

Fucking God Complex. My God's dick is bigger than your God's dick and I have the right to kill everyone who don't believe in my God, cause that's part of believing in my God. yippeee.

Exterminate a Christian for Islam. Oh wait - its kill a Nigger for Christ - right? I get confused, hate is hate is hate is hate. It's ugly no matter who is wearing it. 

Try to be a peace maker, and prevent the backlash from lashing into the 'you look a bit Arabic' - you know its gonna happen. ick. I feel even more sick.

there's nothing uglier than misplaced righteous indignation. 

oh - wait, righteous indignation is why so many folks hate the U.S, right? 

yup - misplaced righteous indignation sure is an ugly thang.

eye for an eye make the whole world blind.

I simply just do not *GET* it. What?! What is the point of endless violence for another 2000 years? Do we really need to go there? No terms - no demands - just death to the infidels. 

WELL FUCK OFF !! ALL RELIGIOUS ZEALOTS CAN JUST PLAIN FUCK OFF! GO AWAY!  THE REST OF US HAVE HAD IT! WE DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL US WHO GOD IS!!  REALLY!! FUCK OFF - I TELL YA! - JUST FUCK THE HELL OFF!!!!!!

Sorry, just hadda get that out. Its a bit unnerving to not be into the religion thing and have to deal with the people who are into the religion thing. And - well admittedly - its hard not to look way down on the folks who are making a big stink about something that you've determined to be an awful lot of bullshit. 

While at the same time, this awful amount of bullshit is a festering sore on the ass of society. 

While the sore ass of the world gears up for a retalitory strike I can't help but to hear the fear and hate machines winding into high gear. Lets get 'em back. We'll show 'em. Oh yeah, we'll show them. I've never in my life been able to determine any single individual that I've grown to actually know - as "them". Who the fuck is "them"? I feel sick. This can only get really bad. 

Yup - there it is. The unmistakable whine of the fear and hate machine winding into high gear. Can you hear it?

I'd like to hear the unmistakable but rarely heard sound of the forgiveness factory gearing up for high volume production. 

Our world's history has been working hard on heaping endless filth upon the Mountain of Shameful Acts. Every act of vegeance against any stone of the Mountain of Shameful Acts, only piles another stone. Every unspeakably deployable act only raises the mountain summit.

Nobody has clean hands. No Race, No Religion, No Body. 

  If you think your particular race or socio/religious group is completely free of all wrong doing to another race or socio/religious group - be sure and take a closer look.  Then be sure and look at the ancestors even farther back. You know, there isn't a time limit on this hate thing. 

According to recent acts of vengeance, its my fault for:

1.  The whole Middle Ages European Crusades thing.
2.  The early American attrocities against the American Indians.
3.  The Slave Trade and attrocities against all African Americans and anybody of African descent from now on.
4.  The Nazis and all the nasty things they did. 

These are my fault. I wasn't yet born. Never actually did anything even remotely that terrible. I have never participated in any behavior that is racially bigoted (I've been accused though - of course - being white means you're a racist).   

So dig into your history. Anything - Anybody even remotely closely related to your race or religion - has done - is all your fault. Anybody - who it has been done to - can feel good about kicking your ass for vengeance. 

The only lasting peace in the world must begin with each individual saying, "No, I will not bring grief to others." Its just that simple.  Its just that complicated. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm the turn the other cheek kinda cheer leader you may think. If its a "somebody done me wrong" song then there needs to be a firm "stop doing me wrong" song response. But again, the cycle goes on. The mountain grows.

Never fear, with the sound leadership we have in place, a wise, long-term, enduring solution will no doubt be found.  :^)

Let those of you with a God pray real hard for the continuation of our species, and not the end of days. Let those of you without a God fear for your lives. 

Tim Bates
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